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Depression and anxiety are things that I have dealt with as long as I can remember, although I wasn’t able to put labels on these experiences until I was a teenager and young adult. There are so many of us that suffer from these issues that I feel it’s important for us to share our stories in hopes of helping others in some way. My own story starts when I was a teenager, possibly even earlier. When I was about seventeen years old, a very close friend of mine pointed out that I was depressed. That news hit me like a ton of bricks and I talked to my mom about it. She had also dealt with it throughout her life as well and knew where I was coming from. Still, knowing that depression was the label for what I was experiencing was only one step in my journey of depression.

In the next few years, I got my depression under control to a certain degree, at least as far as I could on my own. I learned the triggers and the warning signs, and did my best to deal with them as they came. It worked for the time being. However, I now realize that it was a hindrance to my living life more fully. I constantly felt like I should stay in my own bubble and not expanding my world. Then in 2012, my living situation changed drastically. There were a lot of our family members living in a small house, and other stressors that were going on at the time as well. I believe that is what caused things to escalate with my depression and anxiety. Although, this escalation may have been just what I needed to push me to seek further treatment, even though it didn’t happen for a few more years.

As far as my anxiety goes, I started to notice what it meant to me in my early 20’s, when I was in college. One day I went to the school to talk to the admissions office, and realized even after I left that I was feeling really anxious and wound up. At this point, I thought it was only social anxiety and it took me a few years after that to figure out that it was much more than just social anxiety, or even having to just do with being in the spotlight. Due to the tough living situation at the time, I figured out that I had a lot of anxiety about getting things done, expectations or simply perceived expectations of others, having time to think or be alone, and much more. It was an everyday thing, whether I dealt with people outside of my circle of friends and family or not.

My story to really dealing with my depression and anxiety didn’t really start until I started my healthy living journey in 2014. As I worked on getting healthier, I became more aware to how my mind also reacted to stressors and triggers, thus causing me to feel either depressed or anxious. I was beginning to feel better overall but these issues were still very much present in my life, and in the summer of 2015, I was finally able to seek the help I needed. I wanted to approach my treatment from both sides, so I chose to use a therapy and medication combination approach. Therapy was vital either way, and medication was necessary at the time and still is now. Mostly therapy allowed me to talk things out and get some guidance I needed to deal with everyday life in the way that helped me thrive. The medication I started with to treat my depression worked at first, but then it started working less and less, and soon I realized that my depression was also linked to other factors and needed a change in medication in order for me to continue seeing progress. When I approached my psychiatrist about changing my meds, she pretty much acted like I was crazy for proposing a change and wouldn’t prescribe anything else for me to take. Since I had gotten some guidance on the subject from my primary doctor, I turned to her for help after getting this reaction from the psychiatrist. I needed someone who would listen to me, and that is also very vital to treating either of these issues. My primary doctor helped me switch to a different, and much more effective, medication. While this new medication didn’t make the depression disappear, because that wouldn’t be very realistic anyway, it did reduce the symptoms enough that I can live a more normal life.

Dealing with depression and anxiety is not fun, but there are so many options to treating or improving them. Some might include therapy, medications, natural remedies, and much more. Whichever approach that you take is up to you. Most of all, I want you to remember that you are not alone, there are many of us fighting this fight against depression and anxiety.

You might even considering to take a comprehensive, and helpful, online course to help guide you through. One I have found useful in my own life recently, called The Undepression Project!

If your question is what does a course have to offer me that I couldn’t figure out on my own…? I’ll tell you that it has the personal touch of someone who has dealt with depression and has made immense progress in their own journey, and wants to pass along these helpful tips to you! Check it out and see more of what there is in the modules, such as: how self-care and compassion play into how you feel, what social support can do to help you feel better and more stable, how to stay motivated in your journey to improving your depression, and many more topics that will shed light on your depression. Not only that, but you will learn more about depression itself and how it manifests itself in your everyday life. There are so many variables with depression, that we may not be able to identify or understand them all. This course will help you identify and understand more of what depression means to you!

 

What is your story? If you feel like sharing, I would love to hear how you have dealt with your own depression or anxiety.

 

~Bonnie~

7 comments on “What Depression and Anxiety Mean to Me”

  1. I love this. I finally got diagnosed and began treatment for my anxiety and depression about 8 years ago after having lived with It for 25 years –

    • Thank you! It does feel good to get the help we need after trying to figure it out all on our own for a while!

  2. You’re so brave for sharing your story! I have been dealing with anxiety (and I think depression too) for most of my life, starting at birth. It seems to be a chemical imbalance in my case, but ofcourse environment and character also contribute. I’m on medication since 2 years and I’m no longer bothered by the paralyzing panic attacks I had. It helped so much! Thank you for sharing your story, it’s very important indeed!

    • Thank you for sharing a bit of yours too. I think more people need to realize that they’re not alone and it’s not a weakness to suffer from either depression or anxiety, or both.

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